sigh.. so many things tt i wanna write about but don't really know how to word it...

sometimes i just wish i knew how to help those i wanna help.. i wish i could appear as happy as other ppl want me to be... i wish i could be more enthusiastic and supportive.. and of course i wish i were smarter and probably more disciplined.. it just feels so tormenting when u don't know how to go about doing the stuff u wanna do or acting the way u wanna act..

more often than not i find myself thinking about the times when i was in yr 1, when friends could just tell when i was in a lousy mood even if i didn't tell them.. when i was surprised with sweet gestures from them when i least expected it... sigh.. feel so jaded (and now i sound like some cliched angst ridden teenager.. *chuh*)

i'm so tired and reluctant to do anything. which just frustrates me even more.. bah..

sigh.. so many things tt i wanna write about but don't really know how to word it...

sometimes i just wish i knew how to help those i wanna help.. i wish i could appear as happy as other ppl want me to be... i wish i could be more enthusiastic and supportive.. and of course i wish i were smarter and probably more disciplined.. it just feels so tormenting when u don't know how to go about doing the stuff u wanna do or acting the way u wanna act..

more often than not i find myself thinking about the times when i was in yr 1, when friends could just tell when i was in a lousy mood even if i didn't tell them.. when i was surprised with sweet gestures from them when i least expected it... sigh.. feel so jaded (and now i sound like some cliched angst ridden teenager.. *chuh*)

i'm so tired and reluctant to do anything. which just frustrates me even more.. bah..