from tim's blog:

Your Existing Situation

Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in
the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily
aroused by the unusual or the adventurous.

Your Stress Sources

Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things
to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she
pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things.
Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with
sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming
agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and
feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left
her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes
irritable if this is denied him.
Feels rather isolated and alone, but
is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and
therefore quick to take offense.
Feels that she cannot do much about
her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of
things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual
activity.


Your Desired Objective

Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to
allow anything to influence her point of view.

Your Actual Problem

The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives
her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may
categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration
becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of
futility.

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hmm...

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

sigh.. so many things tt i wanna write about but don't really know how to word it...

sometimes i just wish i knew how to help those i wanna help.. i wish i could appear as happy as other ppl want me to be... i wish i could be more enthusiastic and supportive.. and of course i wish i were smarter and probably more disciplined.. it just feels so tormenting when u don't know how to go about doing the stuff u wanna do or acting the way u wanna act..

more often than not i find myself thinking about the times when i was in yr 1, when friends could just tell when i was in a lousy mood even if i didn't tell them.. when i was surprised with sweet gestures from them when i least expected it... sigh.. feel so jaded (and now i sound like some cliched angst ridden teenager.. *chuh*)

i'm so tired and reluctant to do anything. which just frustrates me even more.. bah..

damn effing tired today. could have been because i stayed up till 4 plus watching Hotel Rwanda heh but it was worth it cos was quite an exciting show. but it was the only nice thing that happened today la. dammit.

ok lemme start with lab this morning... have one of those on-going wet lab practicals for neurobiology.. and since we're dealing with cells that can be contaminated quite easily we had to make use of the fume hood (in case u don't know wassat its like a box with a glass pane separating you from your experiment so u don't contaminate your work with stuff flying in the air or stuff tt spews out from u) .. so yea.. our labs have like very few of those fume hood things so we had to share groups will take turns using them. well anyway there was a briefing before the prac today and during the briefing our lecturer and the lab technicians would demonstrate how to do the prac. and because there were 987654345678987654345678 ppl in the #$%^&^%$# lab we couldn't see crap and thus we weren't really sure of what to do. Since we weren't sure of wat to do of course we had to observe other groups first so tt we won't make mistakes.. and some how we ended up being like the last group in line for the fume hood.. so we had to wait like a damn long time.. and after waiting for like 2.5 hours one of my group mates was just too irritated so she left the lab. then the remaining lab partner was feeling under the weather today.. so i did the lab stuff for today after collecting info abt wat to do.. anyway.. the reason why i'm pissed is cos we had to wait a damn long time.

then after school.. came back and did all my laundry and cleaned up my room (i can do it on thursdays cos mondays to wednesdays i'm too bogged down with work) and had no time to take a nap then had to go for boggle training... so i'm like damn tired and in a damn bad mood basically..

ok am going to go out for supper.

byebye

oh ya and to those who leave comments that are unrelated to me or my blog entries: go away u're not welcome

woo.. just woke up from a 1.5 hour nap... have been in and out of the computer AND wet lab this week playing with cells and constructing phylogenetics trees.. not to mention meetings, trying to find curtains for the meeting room in hall and settling the details of some dinner tt's to happen on Friday.. feel so much better now that i've settled the curtains and the dinner =) now theres only the com lab and plant practical report left...

Had a meeting last nite and it didn't go to well for me due to an encounter with a pompous person who doesn't listen to what other ppl have to say =( and my poor dear zh has to suffer the consequences of the pompous person's pompous decisions.. *chuh*

wonder if i'm gonna be able to squeeze a movie outing within this week.... am wanting to watch Tim Burton's Corpse Bride .. Hmm... Kenny from school said it was quite a sad show...

Will be having block supper tonight!! hope the food's yummy! am starting to get hungry now..

Been feeling weird these 2 days.. hard to describe the feeling.. its like extreme happiness but not exactly.. maybe tt's why i'm typing in this weird manner today..

ok have to go and do my phylogenetics practical! its due tmr! and i can't get chicken to be my outgroup for my phylogenetic tree!!! ahhhh.

been having the unwanted feeling lately.. both in school and in hall.. been feeling the need to keep up a facade just so that i'd be accepted (this is more for hall and less for school).. but well getting a bit tired of it already, i'm just not cut out for keeping up fronts for people.. just have the feeling that people aren't acknowledging my presence and don't have the feeling that i'm needed around.. maybe i'm just not good enough..

no matter, i know i'll always feel needed and wanted at home..

am going home today...

=)

from tim's blog:

Your Existing Situation

Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in
the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily
aroused by the unusual or the adventurous.

Your Stress Sources

Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things
to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she
pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things.
Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with
sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming
agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and
feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left
her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes
irritable if this is denied him.
Feels rather isolated and alone, but
is too reserved to allow herself to form deep attachments. Egocentric and
therefore quick to take offense.
Feels that she cannot do much about
her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of
things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual
activity.


Your Desired Objective

Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to
allow anything to influence her point of view.

Your Actual Problem

The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives
her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may
categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration
becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of
futility.

Thank you for using http://www.ColorQuiz.com/

hmm...

Haloscan commenting and trackback have been added to this blog.

sigh.. so many things tt i wanna write about but don't really know how to word it...

sometimes i just wish i knew how to help those i wanna help.. i wish i could appear as happy as other ppl want me to be... i wish i could be more enthusiastic and supportive.. and of course i wish i were smarter and probably more disciplined.. it just feels so tormenting when u don't know how to go about doing the stuff u wanna do or acting the way u wanna act..

more often than not i find myself thinking about the times when i was in yr 1, when friends could just tell when i was in a lousy mood even if i didn't tell them.. when i was surprised with sweet gestures from them when i least expected it... sigh.. feel so jaded (and now i sound like some cliched angst ridden teenager.. *chuh*)

i'm so tired and reluctant to do anything. which just frustrates me even more.. bah..

damn effing tired today. could have been because i stayed up till 4 plus watching Hotel Rwanda heh but it was worth it cos was quite an exciting show. but it was the only nice thing that happened today la. dammit.

ok lemme start with lab this morning... have one of those on-going wet lab practicals for neurobiology.. and since we're dealing with cells that can be contaminated quite easily we had to make use of the fume hood (in case u don't know wassat its like a box with a glass pane separating you from your experiment so u don't contaminate your work with stuff flying in the air or stuff tt spews out from u) .. so yea.. our labs have like very few of those fume hood things so we had to share groups will take turns using them. well anyway there was a briefing before the prac today and during the briefing our lecturer and the lab technicians would demonstrate how to do the prac. and because there were 987654345678987654345678 ppl in the #$%^&^%$# lab we couldn't see crap and thus we weren't really sure of what to do. Since we weren't sure of wat to do of course we had to observe other groups first so tt we won't make mistakes.. and some how we ended up being like the last group in line for the fume hood.. so we had to wait like a damn long time.. and after waiting for like 2.5 hours one of my group mates was just too irritated so she left the lab. then the remaining lab partner was feeling under the weather today.. so i did the lab stuff for today after collecting info abt wat to do.. anyway.. the reason why i'm pissed is cos we had to wait a damn long time.

then after school.. came back and did all my laundry and cleaned up my room (i can do it on thursdays cos mondays to wednesdays i'm too bogged down with work) and had no time to take a nap then had to go for boggle training... so i'm like damn tired and in a damn bad mood basically..

ok am going to go out for supper.

byebye

oh ya and to those who leave comments that are unrelated to me or my blog entries: go away u're not welcome

woo.. just woke up from a 1.5 hour nap... have been in and out of the computer AND wet lab this week playing with cells and constructing phylogenetics trees.. not to mention meetings, trying to find curtains for the meeting room in hall and settling the details of some dinner tt's to happen on Friday.. feel so much better now that i've settled the curtains and the dinner =) now theres only the com lab and plant practical report left...

Had a meeting last nite and it didn't go to well for me due to an encounter with a pompous person who doesn't listen to what other ppl have to say =( and my poor dear zh has to suffer the consequences of the pompous person's pompous decisions.. *chuh*

wonder if i'm gonna be able to squeeze a movie outing within this week.... am wanting to watch Tim Burton's Corpse Bride .. Hmm... Kenny from school said it was quite a sad show...

Will be having block supper tonight!! hope the food's yummy! am starting to get hungry now..

Been feeling weird these 2 days.. hard to describe the feeling.. its like extreme happiness but not exactly.. maybe tt's why i'm typing in this weird manner today..

ok have to go and do my phylogenetics practical! its due tmr! and i can't get chicken to be my outgroup for my phylogenetic tree!!! ahhhh.

been having the unwanted feeling lately.. both in school and in hall.. been feeling the need to keep up a facade just so that i'd be accepted (this is more for hall and less for school).. but well getting a bit tired of it already, i'm just not cut out for keeping up fronts for people.. just have the feeling that people aren't acknowledging my presence and don't have the feeling that i'm needed around.. maybe i'm just not good enough..

no matter, i know i'll always feel needed and wanted at home..

am going home today...

=)