i've gotten really used to the 7-hours-of-sleep thing.. and because i have been sleeping at ard 2 am for the past 2 days.. i had a really tiring day at work today... plus i feel really discouraged by what i heard from ziyi yesterday about what caroline said.. .sigh. part of me feels indignant while the other part really wonders whether i've not been living up to what i'm supposed to be.. perhaps i should have taken more initiative? but then again maybe my working environment wasn't exactly the most "intern-friendly"..

i guess one of my greatest fears is ending up with the realisation that my chosen course of study was really not something that i should have taken and i've wasted a helluva lot of time and $$.. but then i always tell myself its something that i enjoy doing and i should just soldier on... is it possible for somebody to like doing something but may not be good at it? i always try to tell myself that but time and again i'm thrown into a situation where i feel otherwise..

i just wish i could be more certain about myself.. instead of feeling direction-less..

i've gotten really used to the 7-hours-of-sleep thing.. and because i have been sleeping at ard 2 am for the past 2 days.. i had a really tiring day at work today... plus i feel really discouraged by what i heard from ziyi yesterday about what caroline said.. .sigh. part of me feels indignant while the other part really wonders whether i've not been living up to what i'm supposed to be.. perhaps i should have taken more initiative? but then again maybe my working environment wasn't exactly the most "intern-friendly"..

i guess one of my greatest fears is ending up with the realisation that my chosen course of study was really not something that i should have taken and i've wasted a helluva lot of time and $$.. but then i always tell myself its something that i enjoy doing and i should just soldier on... is it possible for somebody to like doing something but may not be good at it? i always try to tell myself that but time and again i'm thrown into a situation where i feel otherwise..

i just wish i could be more certain about myself.. instead of feeling direction-less..