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Wednesday, February 01, 2006 | 1:35 AM
![]() anyway. went back to hall.. bummed ard for a while then started thinking of the inevitable: the alumni dinner.. the reason why i dread it so much is cos my response has been low so far.. and well i really hate being a disappointment.. this being my 3rd yr in jcrc.. naturally i have expectations of myself and perhaps i'm putting pressure on myself for thinking this way.. but i think there are plenty of others watching me as well.. thus i have added pressure.. i'm superly frustrated at how things are going on now.. ARGH. sometimes i wish i could just give up halfway n forget about it.. but my conscience disallows it.. perhaps this is why the person in my position 2 yrs ago couldn't take it and sorta left.. but now.. i still have to live up to my own expectations and trudge on... really need the strength and the energy to do so.. *sigh* ok.. i'll leave the rest of the complaining to the next post.. hopefully i still have the motivation to post... *sigh* i'll see u guys soon.. tata |